We can't help the ability of natural attraction.....

Man I had a really good dream last night......until I realized when I  woke up that it was about someone I had a crush on for YEARS.  I mean literally YEARS.  I hate those dreams.  Why? Well for one I'm married.  It's really really really awkward when I have a dream about a guy I used to like and I wake up and am still thinking about the feelings I had for that person.  I mean at the end of my dream I realized it and was trying to make myself remember that I had a husband.  Because I love my husband and would rather not embark on memory lane with that particular subject.
The dream didn't get into anything scandalous (THANK GOODNESS) but it was still one of those dreams that you go WAAAAAAY back to and remember just how you felt about that person for so long.
I believe that since I never told this individual that I liked them, that-that's maybe why I still feel something towards them BUT not enough to make me do anything stupid.  It's my kid crush.
I think also because I never told them that I have some weird underlining attraction.
(EVERYONE has one.  I'm not scared to admit it because I've talked to other wives about it. SO don't be ashamed as along as you don't act out on it.)

Now I'm not going to lie, I am a HUGE sucker for motorcycles still.  The guy I had a crush on for so long owned or might still I don't know, a dirt bike.  That was in my dream of course.
I don't know why but I think it's safe to admit that every girl out there has one person that they will always be attracted to for some unknown reason.  This is one of those types of people.
Now this goes for the guys too.
I actually talked to my husband about this subject a long time ago.  And we both\ admitted that there have been attracted to people still even after we got married but of course we don't pursue anything with that.

People it's only natural!  We honestly can't help it.  It's one of the hardest things for me to understand while being married because you think before you get married that you will NEVER have thoughts about another person again and that you'll dream only of your husband or wife.  WRONG!!!
You STILL will be again attracted to other people. And then have dreams about them.
My advice? Just talk to your spouse about it.  Be open. My reaoning is because you then get close to your spouse because they are communicating how they have had a similar experience and you remember why you fell in love with them to begin with.
Now it IS hard to admit that to your companion. "Hey honey, I had a dream last night about another guy."....................Awkward.
But that's what I LOVE about my husband.  He is very supportive and understands that there are some things in life that you can't control.

On another note in my life:
Raine is sick again.  I mean not just from teething, but has her voice disappearing, every time she sneezes I have to run for a tissue, slight fever, achy, want to cuddle all the time sick.
I hope she recovers soon.  I dislike seeing my baby sick :(

Stressful times....

So today is good so far. I have all my regular chores started and or done along with the first round of baby duties. (Bathing, feeding and changing)
Now for her first nap (yay!)
I have a few decisions in my life that I need to make and it's the first time ive had NO clue what to do. My husband and I are facing a fork in the road that will both lead to a goal but the fork in the path is when to do it.
I'm not gonna lie its very scary not having the resources I need right now to help but somehow...I hope we'll get there

Phone hated me so much it drowned itself

So it's pretty self explanatory from the title.
But to explain, I dropped my phone in the toilet. So I had a funeral for it and buried it in rice. Hopefully my phone will resurrect and come alive good as new. I highly doubt that though. I picked it up pretty quick so I know it still works.... For now anyway.
On another note in my life Raine is teething. She is five months d and will be six months come march 14th. She is growing up so quickly it boggles mind.
Since she is teething, I find it stressful to get things done because she is whining so much. It's so sad but I know that shell be okay.
To give ya an idea on how it affects me, I was changing the height on her crib so that it cod be lowered due to her name lifting herself up and attempting sitting up.
So with my hand on the last spot that needs to be fixed, I was having difficulty moving it. So I used my foot to hold the crib in place and my hand to try and lift the spacer. While I do this Raine begins to cry the one cry that gets to me. You moms will know it. But for those that don't, it sounds like their in pain. So I look over and check on her. Little did I know that the crib piece decided to slide out and pull the opposite direction.my hand was still holding it so it grabbed my power skin by my pinkie. Now I have a blood blister.
But it's fine considering it cod have just ripped it off.
Oh the joys of mothering.