I'm warning y'all that I'm going on a ranting spree today.
I'm sure that moms will just have one of those years or days (which ever you chose). There's always going to be some type of trial in my life that is going to give me some sort of panic attack or make me feel like I can't do anything to fix it.
Kinda like what we have going on right now.
My amazing husband was able to get into school here in Georgia (yay!). That's really the whole point we moved here was so that he could do that. Now the hard part.
He has to quit a job that is paying him well enough to meet our expenses and pay off our car, to were he will now be working minimum wage and only working a couple hours everyday. The perks is that it'll be in the same town he's going to school in so that'll be good for our gas. Sadly not for paying off car. I don't believe in credit cards or paying off debt with debt. But, with the circumstances we have right now, it looks like we are going to be dealing with that possibly.
I'm so frustrated because I want to do SOMETHING. I feel powerless sitting here at home and not doing working or contributing. That's only part 1 of why I'm losing my mind...
The other matter at hand is that I rarely ever get out much. I don't want to go outside now that it's summer and the humidity is going to get to baby girl and me. Even if I had a car were in the world would I go? I don't know where things are around here and I have no one to go with. Having a baby is great but I have no money to spend on her.
So when the family is all here and I suggest (more like beg because of the serious cabin fever), something comes up to where we don't go do anything.
That's part 2 of why I'm losing my mind....
Recently I've felt so much more closed off to people. Especially my husband. Our relationship is changing and evolving as we are together. One thing I have a hard time with now is his schedule. He's gone from 6 am til 7 pm and by the time he comes home, my baby is getting fussy and wants to go to bed. I get irritated since i haven't had a break from her all day (I don't mind staying with her but let's be honest....mommies need a break too)
So then I go off and try to soothe her til she's tired enough to fall asleep and when all that's done, my husband is in bed and I don't get to talk to him.
I"m sure that everyone will tell me that they had a period of time in there lives when they weren't close to there spouse because of jobs or school or whatever but it's difficult for me. Especially since we live with my mother in law. She's awesome and helps take care of us since we can't afford to live on our own yet. But let me tell you. Not having your own space is hard because you don't get to do what you want too.
I'm finding it easier to stay away from people here because I have no friends here. Therefore I just make the excuse that I don't want to do anything because I have no one to keep my company. But when I do need to talk to someone, my poor husband has to hear all the things I would rather tell a girlfriend. Because girls just get that sorta thing. Guys don't. But at least my husband is willing to listen.
Today I'm bored out of my mind. My husbands at work, the boys went off shooting (couldn't go do that because Raine needed to take a nap and the guns are to loud for her anyway), the female in laws are talking furniture and that pretty much sums up my whole list of people I could talk to or do anything with. All the activities we had planned for today went flying out the window so now everyone's just doing there own thing.
I"m trying to soothe my boredom by blogging but there's only so much I can write.
Well, here's to hoping something comes up so I won't go crazy.,,,,,
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Friday, June 14, 2013
Dizzy spells and feeling weak... AND RAINE IS 9 months today!!!
Man it's been a while since I blogged. I know i disappeared for a while but I'm back now :)
So I don't know what the deal is but I've been having TERRIBLE dizzy spells for the past 2 days. I'm eating and drinking plenty of water now but even after that....
Yesterday it was so bad that I had to force myself to lie down. Let me tell you, having a 9 month old is not easy because she wanted me to hold her but I couldn't even sit up. So that particular one lasted for over 20 minutes. I tried calling one of my in laws to come over and sit with me but sadly I couldn't get a hold of her. I'm actually currently experiencing one right now. Every time I turn my head or even move the slightest bit, my head starts to spin. T-T. sadness.
I need to call a doctor and let them know what's going on. So I'll let you guys know what's going on with that later.
Moving on before I finish this, Raine just turned 9 months old today :D These past 6 months have literally just flown by and I have no idea were they are going :P
So here are 9 things have developed just within the 9 month mark:
1. Her hair is Curling!
2. Has another tooth coming in
3. Can click her tongue
4. Can walk around the livingroom with the sofas help
5.Discovered she can climb under chairs and other obstacles
6. Slaps at water in tub to drink it off her hands.
7. Loves a combination of "chase me" and peek-a-boo
8. Refuses to let go of her animal toys so she'll crawl with 1 in each hand.
9. When we put her hands together, she'll flatten them so we'll clap them for her.
I love my baby girl so much. She is growing up so quickly and soon enough I won't be able to catch up to her haha
Funny story:
My brother in law is getting married next week, so he is currently residing in the room where she usually sleeps. For now she is sleeping in our room in a pac n play.
Here is what's funny.
So I had just put her down for the night and of course she didn't want to go to sleep because she was wound up. So what did she do after I crawled into bed and turned the lights out?
Well being the creative little bean that she is, she began throwing herself against the netting in the crib. Not because she was angry or upset but because she was getting her extra energy out. She would bounce back and forth on it and giggle uncontroably. Then she would stand up and hold onto the side of the pac n play and then let her hands go and let herself fall backwards until she hit the floor of it. Again, she would giggle and laugh and then roll around her pac n play. Lastly she then would sit up and stare up at the ceiling (remember it's dark so you couldn't see it), then fall backwards.
Raine did this I kid you not for a half an hour! I have no complaints because I was able to relax in bed and watch her :3
That's how I know she's mine because she's such a happy, imaginative baby :D
So I don't know what the deal is but I've been having TERRIBLE dizzy spells for the past 2 days. I'm eating and drinking plenty of water now but even after that....
Yesterday it was so bad that I had to force myself to lie down. Let me tell you, having a 9 month old is not easy because she wanted me to hold her but I couldn't even sit up. So that particular one lasted for over 20 minutes. I tried calling one of my in laws to come over and sit with me but sadly I couldn't get a hold of her. I'm actually currently experiencing one right now. Every time I turn my head or even move the slightest bit, my head starts to spin. T-T. sadness.
I need to call a doctor and let them know what's going on. So I'll let you guys know what's going on with that later.
Moving on before I finish this, Raine just turned 9 months old today :D These past 6 months have literally just flown by and I have no idea were they are going :P
So here are 9 things have developed just within the 9 month mark:
1. Her hair is Curling!
2. Has another tooth coming in
3. Can click her tongue
4. Can walk around the livingroom with the sofas help
5.Discovered she can climb under chairs and other obstacles
6. Slaps at water in tub to drink it off her hands.
7. Loves a combination of "chase me" and peek-a-boo
8. Refuses to let go of her animal toys so she'll crawl with 1 in each hand.
9. When we put her hands together, she'll flatten them so we'll clap them for her.
I love my baby girl so much. She is growing up so quickly and soon enough I won't be able to catch up to her haha
Funny story:
My brother in law is getting married next week, so he is currently residing in the room where she usually sleeps. For now she is sleeping in our room in a pac n play.
Here is what's funny.
So I had just put her down for the night and of course she didn't want to go to sleep because she was wound up. So what did she do after I crawled into bed and turned the lights out?
Well being the creative little bean that she is, she began throwing herself against the netting in the crib. Not because she was angry or upset but because she was getting her extra energy out. She would bounce back and forth on it and giggle uncontroably. Then she would stand up and hold onto the side of the pac n play and then let her hands go and let herself fall backwards until she hit the floor of it. Again, she would giggle and laugh and then roll around her pac n play. Lastly she then would sit up and stare up at the ceiling (remember it's dark so you couldn't see it), then fall backwards.
Raine did this I kid you not for a half an hour! I have no complaints because I was able to relax in bed and watch her :3
That's how I know she's mine because she's such a happy, imaginative baby :D
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